Tuesday, June 8, 2010

I must still be here for a reason

I was scanned last Thursday and everything was clear.  So now I have another scan in October and one in January.  When those are clear then it's once every six months.  I'll never get used to going in that tube.  I can't breathe in those things. 

I had a little talk with my doctor after he gave me news that my scans were clear. He mentioned that I'm the only one who's still here from a group of us who were sick together.  I asked him why he thought that happened. He kind of shrugged his shoulders and really didn't say anything... I don't know either. I must still be here for a reason. I know it's not photography.  I took that picture in my car today.


  1. The world is a better, brighter place with you still here. You give HOPE to others who feel hopeless; just by being "here".

    Knowing you; knowing your battle and survival from hell helps me make it through each day of the aftermath of the fire in my apartment...

    Thank you, Brett.


  2. “I knew exactly where I was going until life hit me square in the nuts” ~

    At some point we all think we have this thing called “Life” figured out. You grow up, get married have a couple of kids, buy a house, get a dog, go to work at a job you love, retire, travel, play with grandkids and live happily ever after.

    And some people are lucky enough to obtain a reasonable facsimile of that dream they’re the lucky ones, most of us are not that lucky.

    And then there are those that get hit with a BIG wake up call, a tragedy hits and they’re left wondering “Why”?

    Why me?
    Why did my house burn down?
    Why did my dog runaway?
    Why did my kids go bad?
    Why did my wife leave me for another man or woman?
    Why do I work at such a shitty job?
    Why? Why? Why?

    Or as you say

    WHY am I still alive?

    Of all the people that are sick in this world or even just sick in this room WHY ME?

    What is it that I have to offer the world?
    What can I possibly give anyone?
    I’m not “Special” Why me?

    But its not so much “Why Me?” Brett
    It’s why not me?

    I was talking to a friend of ours last night and I told her that we don’t always see what it is that others get from us, why is she so special? Why would strangers STRANGERS give so generously to her? Because one night she listened, or when they needed it she made them laugh ~ because she gives so freely of herself without once wanting or needing a guarantee that what she gives will be used wisely.

    Our strengths are not always obvious to us Brett, we don’t always see what other people see I learned that from an old friend I haven’t seen in 30 years.

    That scared, shy, introverted teenage girl made an impact on him in a way she didn’t know she was capable of, an impact that affected the way HE looked at the world.

    And it was simple ~ she was just being who she was, just like our friend ~ just like you.

    You are so strong, tenacious, tireless, relentless, passionate being with the capabilities to effect a true change. To give a voice, a familiar face to a huge problem in this country.

    People are dying because they can’t afford NOT to.

    You are here for a reason Brett. Don’t try and force it, just let it come to you. And know it will be because of your “Natural” talents, what you bring to the table that is “Uniquely” you.

    You will inspire others to fight for THEIR lives

    Why You?

    Why not you? I can’t think of anyone better to lead the fight.

    Love You<3

  3. Yes you are here for a reason and I thank GOD every day for it!

  4. I know why you are here, to look cancer straight in the face in torment and in that Chucky Margolis voice say Na Na Nuh Na Na, then raspberries

  5. God has a plan for each one of us. God must not be done with you here on earth.

    "For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do." - Ephesians 2:10

    Not too many people survive a stage 4 cancer. Consider it a big blessing.

    I have family and friends who have battled cancer. A few have survived, most have not. Right now, I have an aunt with stage 4 bone cancer and a friend battling stage 2 breast cancer.

    Take Care,